This Is Me, Finally Telling the Truth
Choosing me over the grind
So… here we go. The start of something new. Girl! How long are you going to stay stuck?!? Now don't get all up in arms—I'm talking to myself right now.
Actually, on second thought… if the writing fits...
I've been sitting on this question for years. Ironically, I’m writing this in the same journal whose first entry—18 months ago—was me asking myself the exact same question.
So how did I get here?
I’ll tell you all about it, cuz I need to get it off my chest.
All the way back to early childhood, if you asked me what I wanted to be, you would’ve gotten some version of: “business woman,” “owner,” or “executive.”
Now would you believe it if I told you I became just that?
A businesswoman.
An owner.
An executive.
Have you ever run toward something so hard—thinking it was everything you ever wanted—only to achieve it and feel completely unfulfilled?
Then I spent my days and nights trying to convince myself that I was living my dream life.
I’ll tell you how it went for me: friends, family, coworkers—all cheered me on. And why the heck wouldn’t they? From the outside looking in, everything must have looked fantastic.
Only I was silently suffering.
For years.
You know what I did? I took on more!!
I launched and led employee resource groups.
Joined a community board for my city.
Organized events. Filled in for colleagues.
Started businesses. Launched podcasts. Landed promotions...
To sum it up: I put myself on the front line every chance I got.
Added responsibility. Increased my workload.
And vacationed when I was on the brink of collapse.
The result?
Little by little, it crushed my creativity.
It drained my patience.
And it sucked away my joy.
So why am I oversharing right now?
Because as all this was happening to me, I didn’t feel like I had anywhere to turn. No one to talk to. No one who truly understood.
Sharing my struggle always felt like I was being ungrateful.
I’d be met with well-meaning but useless cheerleading like:
“You got this!”
“You were built for this!”
“You’re amazing at [X], I wish I could do what you do.”
I mean... I get it.
So many people would kill to be where I was.
Who am I to complain?
Well—you know what?
I’m not complaining.
I’m being honest.
It’s not all it’s cracked up to be.
Let’s be clear—am I going to close my businesses, sell my house, and run off into the wilderness never to be seen again?
No.
Well... not in the traditional sense 😏
What I am going to do is redirect my journey.
I’m creating a new version of success—one built on abundance (Uba), one that lets me thrive outside the typical capitalistic definition of “success.”
Cuz I’ve climbed the ladder.
I’ve done the bootstrapping.
I’ve walked the path…
And here’s what I found:
The ladder is missing rungs.
The bootstraps are worn thin.
And the path? It leads nowhere.
It’s a never-ending hike at a 1000% incline.
So if you’re interested in sticking around, I promise—it’s going to be pretty epic.
And I bet we’ll have a lot of fun along the way.
If any of this is resonating—if you've ever felt stuck, or chased a version of success that didn’t fit—I’d love to hear from you. Hit reply or drop a comment. Let’s not do this journey alone.
For over a decade—maybe even my whole life—I’ve dreamed of living off-grid.
Every goal I’ve set, every business I’ve built, every trip, every investment... all of it has been in service of one ultimate outcome:
✨ Buying land
✨ Building a homestead
✨ Eventually creating a family/community farm
But that dream?
It was always subordinate to the fake dream.
It always felt out of reach.
Outlandish.
Crazy.
Unattainable.
Something I could only do after I [insert never-ending list of achievements here].
But after a lot of research, deep self-reflection, and—let’s be honest—a whole heap of if not now, then when?...
I’ve decided I don’t have to wait for that never-capturable “until.”
So it’s happening. Now.
I’ve been quietly making moves to lay the foundation for this next chapter, and I’m going to be sharing the full journey—
The process.
The wins.
The mess.
And everything in between.
This next season will be a blend of real-life experience, business strategy, and the adventure of homesteading—something real and engaging for anyone interested in lifestyle shifts, entrepreneurship, or sustainability.
I don’t know exactly how I’ll tell this story yet.
But I do know this: I want to connect with people.
People who are curious.
People on similar paths.
People building community and redefining success in their own ways.
So if that’s you—whether you’re following along, learning, or just rooting for me—
Drop a comment.
Send me a message.
Tell me about your story too.
I'd love to hear from you—
P.S. I’ll be sharing behind-the-scenes, business lessons, and plenty of real talk. If there’s something you want me to cover—or if you’re on a similar path—reach out. I’d love to feature more voices in this space, too.
In the next post, I’ll share the first major decision I had to make in going off-grid—and what surprised me most.and root for your journey in return.